First Check-in of the Year
Urm … hello, Happy New Year …
Yes, I know it’s the 26th January and memories of sherry and mince pies have long faded into the distance, but it’s the first time that I’ve checked in during 2013. As usual, I’ve been avidly reading my favourite blogs, but writing a post myself hasn’t been high on my list of priorities. However, whenever I take a break from inhabiting this little piece of cyberspace I eventually feel the pull back towards writing and interacting with the community.
One reason that I’ve avoided posting is that I feel that my life and my focus have changed quite a lot in the past few months, especially in regards to my health and how that’s impacted on my lifestyle. At the end of last year I wrote about discovering that I have a vitamin B12 deficiency and I was hopeful that with regular injections I would start to feel back to normal.
In many respects I do feel better, but not quite firing on all cylinders. I feel exhausted less frequently, which is good news, but I still have days where I feel like gravity is pulling me forcibly into a heap on the ground and everything is fuzzy and doesn’t quite make sense. I also have occasional recurrence of classic B12 deficiency symptoms like tinnitus, heart palpitations and pins and needles.
I’m hopeful that as time goes on these symptoms will become less and less frequent and I’ll feel more like my sparky bright self of a few years ago. Sometime I feel like I’m 28, going on 50, which is not helped by the pesky grey hairs I found over Christmas (another annoying symptom of deficiency)
All of this has made me reassess my priorities, and at the moment that means being healthy enough to cultivate my relationships, make a contribution at work and make the most of my free time. As a result, I’ve dramatically cut down on exercise. I love working out and in many ways I miss the endorphin rush and the sense of satisfaction that comes with a great run or circuits class, but I don’t believe that’s what’s best for me right now. Intense exercise increases B12 requirements and leaves me feeling like I need to vegetate on the sofa for a long time afterwards.
My main forms of exercise have been yoga and walking. Yoga practice has become important to me, both to build strength and to relax and let go of anxiety. I get on my mat most weekday mornings and I hope to develop my practice further over the next year. I’ve always loved walking and have been out for at least half an hour each day. Once the snow and ice have finally melted I want to do even more walking and take the opportunity to enjoy the countryside.
I would like to build up the amount of exercise I do and I would love to run again soon. However, I doubt that I’ll be doing as much as I have been in recent years. I want to exercise for health and enjoyment rather than chasing an ideal of fitness. That’s not to say that I didn’t enjoy running long distances – I really did, but the overall impact on my life isn’t worth it. I just want to be able to approach every morning with energy and verve.